disappointed or proud?

I was first torn between embarrassed for or proud of the strength it took to not become a victim of the spiral of silence when I read this article on Joaquin Phoenix's new life choice.
...but then i read on and decided he's still a favorite. you go joaquin!

"What thaaa......"
Joaquin Phoenix breakdown a fake?

The minute he put those little tinfoil hats on he had my heart!